June 2010
I’m gonna start using my other blog again! Its more personal.
So these few days haven’t been the best, but all of the things that happened weren’t so bad until today. I can’t even explain how much I love my pets, every single one of them, and I’ve lived before the deaths of some of them, but non have hurt so much like this. Logan first called Keira, my boyfriend gave him to me, it was love at first sight, since the beginning we loved him (I love cats so much), he lived outside because my sister is allergic to cats, but once or twice I sneaked him in my room, it was amazing the way he looked at me with love and just loved being around me. Sometimes while being outside he screamed so loud and me thinking he wanted food went to check on him, but no, he had food, he only wanted me, he wanted my love, and I being a bad owner sometimes ignored him, oh I regret that so much.
Yesterday I was outside taking some pictures and he was following me every step, and I got mad at him and pushed him, but he didn’t care and kept following me. He had his eye hurt, because he was in a fight last nigh but nothing so bad, he’s a cat that’s normal. Last night while I was sleeping he yelled like he was fighting again, but I don’t know why I didn’t went to check on him.
This morning my mom told me she hasn’t seen him, so weird because he’s always there. I was hoping for him to return, so I continued with my day normally. I got in the car and left my house with my mom and sister, when we were like 5 houses away from mine I realize I forgot my phone so my mom turned the car around and that’s when I saw him, there he was, my poor cat, twisting from extreme pain, still alive…dying (can’t even describe how he looked). I started crying immediately, got off my car and ran home to call my boyfriend, I thought maybe it wasn’t too late maybe I can take him to the vet, but when we went back, he had died. What a horrible way to die, no living creature deserves that, I can’t even describe how much in pain he looked, he lost an eye, he had so many bruises, and for what’s worst he had been like that for hours. Thank god he’s in a better place now, I wish I could’ve done something, I regret every single time I ignored him or got mad at him, I want to go back in time and avoid his death, his torture, I want to tell him I love him again.
Logan: We loved you so much when you were with us and we will love you no less now that you’re gone. Rest in peace.
-Natalie